Excruciating Love

Surveillance you athwart the extent

propel sweltering ache in my heart.
I reflect flipside to a year before,
when I notion we'd never split.
My affection for you won't pass away behind -
it rise with every fresh day.
I desire you'd defy to gaze at me
and heed what I enclose to utter;
"I adore you and I want you back - "
but these lexis you just won't listen.
You don't appear to consider them -
all the reminiscences I grasp dear.
You were my original kiss,
my foremost love
and currently you don't even be bothered.
How could you in a minute gust it away?
We were the ideal duo.
You look comfortable to let me walk off -
You're doing superior as you are,
while I'm motionless missing how we were.
We had the unsurpassed love by extreme.

***@><@***

When I am accompanied by him!

An interior harmony ambiance me,
gratification in my spirit.
A love that I have hunted for,
precise since the awfully instigate.

The composure I undergo in me,
The longing pro his pat.
His balmy and tender kisses,
they imply a lot.

An internal potency inside me,
One I’ve on no account experienced prior
So pleased for what I’m sensing,
At this instant and yet further.

Not a day depart by that I don’t discover,
What love is exclusively about?
Seizing on to what is exceptional.
Never philanthropic in to distrust.

These feelings I grasp profound indoors,
And the love I have to allocate.
tip from my spirit so liberally,
on every occasion he is nearby.

***@><@***

It drived me nuts!

I once cherished you so greatly

and pro so long.

Why did you abscond

when I did zilch erroneous?
Your grin was once the sun

on a sinister, showery day.

It would lucid up the sky

and uphold it from being hoary.
Your eyes were once the burnish

of the world's lustrous luminosity.

Or were they the blinking luminary

that once crammed the hours of darkness?
Your hand once had supremacy

to confer me the softest tap.

They'd always give me a trivial quiver,

which is why I treasured them so greatly.
Your clinch were once the remedy

that’d alter a grimace to merriment.

A shiver would scuttle throughout my body

every instant I sense your love in close proximity.
Your kisses were once the breeze

they were unsullied and brisk adjacent to my face.

They were mild, so placid;

it’s something no one will reinstate.
But, now you are fond of someone else,

and it's driving me insane.

Although it's over for us,

the love we had still leftovers.
And so I enlighten myself

in no way again will I sob.

You were once the whole lot to me,

that I can't rebuff.
But I couldn't keep my swear

and bust out in snivel.

The hours I've cried feel like days,

the days feel akin to years.
As I inter my face in the cushion,

and weep my heart out and lament,

I've erudite to never give away love

if I don't obtain love in revisit.

***@><@***

Perhaps you may or may not!

I don't assume you will

Ever wholly comprehend

How you've patted my life

And completed me who I am.

I don't judge you could eternally distinguish

Just how truthfully exceptional you are

That even on the murkiest night

You are my dazzling star.

I don't suppose you will ever effusively grasp

How you've made my thoughts appear factual

Or how you've unbolted my sensitivity

To love and the marvels it can carry out.

You've permitted me to practice

Something extremely durable to hit upon

Unreserved love that subsists

In my body, essence, and wits.

I don't presume you may possibly ever sense

All the love I have to bestow

And I'm persuaded you'll never befall conscious

You've been my determination to survive.

You are an astounding being

And devoid of you I don't discern where I'd be.

Having you in my verve

Inclusive and accomplish every fraction of me.

***@><@***

Dawdling Tears

I stare up
As a tear spins at a snail's pace

down my cheek
I think about superior days
And marvel if I'll sense that way again
You glance at me
With those eyes I be acquainted with so well
Constantly solemn, so cavernous and perceptive
As though you're always in control
But not at the moment
Not at this time
Now you look so terrified
Like for once you don't have the retort
I gaze at you
Staring profound into those hazel eyes
On tenterhooks to comprehend
Why you've said those stuff you did
I speculate for a instant
If this is all
A figment of the imagination
If I shall wake in the cock-crow
And be reassured
You look at me
With a bafflement I have never seen
Leisurely heave me towards you
And dab the tears from my cheek

"YUP", "YUP", "YUP", 'I DO'!

My elation is brimming,
You got down on your knees

And have ostensible perpetually

Your exceptional love intended for me.

There was no fluctuation,

The jiffy I said “yup,”

And bestowed life to the feelings

I’m yearning to utter.

I confer myself entirely,

My spirit belongs to you;

I’m including every flash

In Anticipation of we say “I do.”

You are the ideal personality

To accolade my life;

There’ll subsist no brighter day than

When I become your consort.

***@><@***

DIVORCE!!

Urgh! Divorce a common word among Maldivians. Right?
A couple steps into the holly relation of marriage with lots of hope, dreams and foremost with boundless love. Then what is the reason for them to come up with the word divorce just within few months or years of their relation.
I asked myself a hundred times this question but came up with the same points each time.. I would like to share it with you too.

· Early marriage
· Too much engaged in professional life
· First baby

EARLY MARRIAGE:-
Longtime back, during the time of our ancestors, marriage was a common cultural activity. When a girl turns fifteen her parents give her hand to someone whom she even don’t know. And finally what happens? It brings out throbbing outcomes. The girl becomes pregnant within a month of her new life, and everything changes. Husband gets upset as the girl couldn’t come up to his expectation. Finally it leads to an argument which ends with the word “vari kohfa”. After delivery she marries to another man.. So on it goes.
And what about today everyone has dreams. Before marriage boyfriend will promise to bring the stars on the sky even. Though so when you enter the real life you would come to see everything a dream. Now he is your husband, so from then onwards he will say a big no to all your enjoyment. And your dreams will remain as dreams which will create a wall in between the lovely couple. As soon as the wall is created its one of the hardest thing to b removed and mostly it takes both of them to the seats in front of the judge and within minutes the two souls separate and head off onto their own way and never looks back.

PROFESSIONAL LIFE
When both husband and wife engage themselves in professional life sometimes they might not be able to give time to each other for so long that it creates misunderstanding between them. Most of the people in Maldives work in private companies which doesn’t have particular time for work. Sometimes it goes from morning nine to night eleven. This brings the companies number of income but the lives of the couple with lot of problems. And the couple doesn’t have enough time for each other and finally cause the love in between them to fade off.

FIRST NEW BORN BABY
A baby brings lot of fortune and dreams to a couple’s life. When the first time the doctor confirms that the wife is expecting they jumps up into air with excitement. They dreams about the baby all the day throughout the nine months and do lot of shopping. Once when the baby breaths in the air of this environment things change. For the first few months always there would be some relatives inside the couple’s room and they would never get time to spend together with each other alone. This causes the husband to feel left alone. In addition to this the expense also increase and sometimes that also lead to an argument.

***ASHLYN***

Month of Holy Quran

Fasting in the month of Ramadan, like Namaaz (prayers) is a divine command. Allah says in the Holy Quran, "O you who believe! Fasting is prescribed for you, as it was prescribed for those before you, so that you may guard (against evil)." (2:183)
It was reserved for Islam to formulate and perfect a form of spiritual purification for every one of its followers, notwithstanding the state of society they belonged to, and which could be performed without interfering with their normal avocations and callings in everyday life.
Whatever calling or vocation he is engaged in, does not hinder a Muslim from carrying out this annual requirement of the Faith, the fast of this month of Ramadan, which incidentally, is also one of the five cardinal points of Islamic tenet.
The Muslim fast means a complete abstention from eating or drinking between daybreak and sunset. The sighting of the thin sickle of the new moon of Ramadan heralds for the Muslim the beginning of a month of glory and of spiritual elevation, when, at Allah's command, he voluntarily and of his own free will, denies himself between day-break and sunset, the blessing of food and drink, and surrenders himself up wholly to Allah, observing the same abstention throughout the whole month in his thoughts, his speech, his behavior, his every act.
For this month, for the Muslim, means the triumph of the spiritual and the pure in his nature over all the grossness and carnation, which is an inevitable component of our human make-up. The Holy Prophet Muhammad (SAW) in the following words beautifully explains the actual significance of the fast: -
"One who, while fasting, does not guard his tongue from telling lies, does not refrain from doing bad deeds, is not respecting his fast and Allah does not approve of mere abstention from food". When you are keeping fast, you should not speak ill of anybody, nor should you be boisterous and noisy. If anybody speaks ill of you or tries to pick a quarrel with you return him not, but say unto him that you are fasting.
Divine Revelation: Ramadan however, has another deeper significance for the Muslim, Ramadan's greatness is manifest in the fact that Almighty Allah chose it for the revelation of His Scriptures from time to time.
Abraham [Ibrahim (A.S.)] received scriptures on the first or third of Ramadan, David [Dawood (A.S.)] on the twelfth or the eighteenth, Moses [Musa (A.S.)] on the sixth, and Jesus [Esa (A.S.)] on the twelfth or the thirteenth of Ramadan.
It was in the very month of Ramadan that the Holy Quran, the last revealed Book, started descending upon Holy Prophet Muhammad (SAW). It testifies: (Ramadan is the month in which was sent down the Quran as a guide to mankind ...) (2:185)
But the Holy Quran, the divine revelation from Allah to mankind through the medium of our Holy Prophet Muhammad (SAW), has remained. In every Ramadan the Muslims celebrate the spiritual significance of that divine fact the eternal abiding permanence of the Holy Quran.
During this Holy month therefore, the Muslim takes himself more assiduously to the reading of the Holy Book of Allah, the standing miracle of the Holy Prophet Muhammad (SAW), the miracle which he stated would remain to testify to the authenticity of Allah's message even after he, Muhammad (S.A.W.) passed away.
Throughout this holy month, therefore, from every Muslim home is heard, during the day and night, the pleasant and beautiful cadences of Quranic recitation.
Then there is the Holy Prophet Muhammad (SAW) saying as an incentive to renewed reading of the Holy Quran especially in this month: "A man gets the same reward by reading one verse of the Holy Quran as others do by reading the whole of the Holy Quran in other months." In this holy month of Ramadan it should be the duty of every Muslim to read the Holy Quran and thereby gain an insight into the Divine secrets. It breathes peaceful spirit to the human body. It imparts purity to the human soul and removes many a curtain hanging between man and God.
As the month of Ramadan is a specified period of purification, so the Holy Quran must carefully be studied by every devotee of Islam for self-guidance. Allah is the light of the heavens and the earth and the Holy Quran a light for the seekers of truth. It wards off the evil effect of unhealthy atmosphere, it sanctifies the cause of the fast and keeps the true believer in direct communion with Allah, and it does but speaks His own words.
Only constant experience can tell the tremendous amount of pleasure one finds in reading the Holy Quran.
"Says verily, my prayer, my sacrifices, my living and my dying are but offerings to Allah, the Lord of Creation" - like a beacon of hope for the faithful, these heartening words occur in the Holy Quran to strengthen the hearts of the believing Muslim in the realness of their whole-hearted surrender to Allah.
What has the believing Muslim to fear after reading this clear promise by Allah of His nearness to His servants, not only throughout this life but also in the hereafter?
In the holy month of Ramadan, especially, this promise of Allah's has a particular significance for the believing Muslim who dedicates his prayers and his sacrifices (in the form of his fasts) up to Allah, the Lord of Creation.

Taken from http://www.ezsoftech.com/ramadan/ramadan01.asp

I WISH TO...!!

We all used to dream…some only comes true others just let go into the past and fades off. Likewise I also dream about something’s, which I really want to happen in my life.
I wish to have a family in which I have a sweet husband who loves me, who cares me.
I wish to have a big belly carrying a small life in it.
I wish to have the pleasure of giving birth to a cute baby girl... well doesn’t matter if it’s a boy also.
I wish to live the life in a small family where everything is sweet... no spices only honey
I know it’s too early to think about it. Let’s give few years for my dreams to come true: P
If it comes true for sure I would share with you too. Bye. TC. Have a nice day

LONELY GIRL

I am a lonely girl

Lost in the darkest valleys of my imagination

Noone is there to hear my cries,

Noone is there to show me light,

Noone is there to love meI am a lonely girl

The sky above me is filled with dark sombre clouds

Noone is there to give me shelter,

Noone is there to protect me,

Noone is there to care for me

I am a lonely girl,

Dark shadows are lurking behind me

Noone is there to shield me,

Noone is there to save me,

Noone is there to hold my hand.

UNFORESEEN FAILURE

Foremost I would like to apologize from the entire blog lovers for being delayed in updating my elfin blog. Thing was I felt a bit lethargic and had no mood to do any updates.
Three days back one of my preeminent buddy got accident. It had been long time that I haven’t met him face to face. Opportunely my mom happened to be there on sanatorium when he was taken to there. She told me somebody from that house had got accident and is being in ICU and cause of the mammoth horde she was powerless to find who he is. I planned to clear out who it is and visit him. Today when I questionate from my cousin I came to distinguish that it was him and he had been shifted to Mal’e.
Poor me!! Being a pal I was incapable to visit him, when he needed my help the most. I was unable to lend him a hand.

I pray to Allah to protect him from all the risk. "Ameen"

BE TRUE !

From the beginning,

It felt like you had all the right things to say,

But little did I know,

You were just a good mindreader.

I used to think,

A phone call or two would be okay,

But little did I know,

You just wanted someone to talk to.

You made me believe,

I wanted something different,

But little did I know,

You knew it was what all girls wanted to hear.

With a question on your mind,

You made me question too.

Was all this real?

Or was it untrue?

You said you were smart,

And i thought you'd get a clue,

Because the answer was

Always right infront of you.

Through the lies and deceit,

You believed it all,

I guess friends don't always

Catch you when you fall.

But the love began to fade,

As confusion took its place,

I thought love had to be mutual,

But it wasn't in this case.

Because your heart,

Began to love another girl,

And I felt it all,

Caved in inside my world.

I'm stronger than that,

But I don't want to take another hit.

You said you weren't like the others,

I wish I knew before what you meant and where you fit.

So all the words that were never said,

All the feelings you never expressed,

The way you broke my heart told me,

That surely you were not the best.

So now I know I deserve better,

I won't let myself be pushed and shoved,

You wanted an answer to your question?

Well my heart went from love to LOVED.

DEAD BEAT

Today was a tough day. Till evening there had been zilch to do. However something like four in the evening my aunt visited with her two daughters. In fact aunt and mom premeditated a shopping journey. Generally they don’t get time to go out in the night cause of this Hindi drama’s coming from star plus. I marvel what’s so extraordinary in them that more than ninety percent Maldivian goes fanatical for it. It’s same in my family too. All will be seated under TV just about half past seven in the evening.
At first aunt thought to take my cousins along with them but later on she intended me to go with them back to their residence. Guess what? That era I haven’t eaten my lunch yet. I was so much betrothed in face book that I more or less disregarded it. As soon as I stimulated away from my little computer buddy I came to suffer the starvation. So I ran to take a snap before I leave.
Within an hour I was ready and we headed to our destination on the way we had lots of fun. Half way I felt like if my bracelet was missing. That often happens; I can’t remember how many I have lost. That was my favorite which I got gifted by my mom two months back. Again we walked back to find if we could find any sign of it. My cousin’s tartan the roads but there was no sign of it. After a short time we reached the point from where we started our way, my home place. Unenthusiastically we went in and sat on the bed with no hope. With a swift look I figured out my wristlet resting on the corner of the bed.
Poor us! We had to do repeat the same thing again. Walk back to my aunt’s place. Without waiting for any further we headed to go back. Few minutes later we reached our target. Three of us were so tired and dehydrated, that we all made our way towards water as quickly as we got into the house. Following that until aunt and mom comeback we had party. : P

***ASHLYN***

FURY & FRUSTRATION !

It had been an appalling day for me. In the early morning something like four I woke up cause of gruesome tummy ache. I squandered hours gently sloping on the bed trying to close up my eye, but it was all futile. With the first cock-crow I got up from bed and headed to the table on left corner of the room and wolfed my medicine. Slowly my eyes closed and felt into deep sleep. When I woke up it had been noon. Poor me
After a bath I ran to kitchen to make lunch for me. Well that doesn’t meant that mom didn’t cook. Mom did but what to do, two weeks back when I consulted a doctor he advised me not to eat fish, meat and spice. On top of that, the old illness. Vomiting, headach, dizzy sometimes blood spouts. Everyone is concerned about me , seeing that I feel cheerful cause they care for me a lot but sometimes I feel like if I am given less importance in some case that make my heart shatter. Fact is they give me importance but I am so much occupied by stress about my wellbeing, the associates around me, some cheaters, some mournful truth that bother me a lot. Sometimes all those seize me into their curse and break my self-reliance.
In that case I get antagonism with no trouble. That instinct I never grasp what I say. I just bug out my rage to the one who is the most close to my heart who are innocent and who nowhere in the stuff. Why it occurs so when we never desire to hurt our beloved one’s but unwittingly we does that thing from which we always try to put ourselves out of sight. I swear I never destined to hurt anybody when I do so. Thing is I can’t have power over that temper. Insanity taps up on my head. When I realize it the whole thing is always flawed. That’s what happened today itself as well. I guess it’s not the era to tell the whole story of mine. If so then there won’t be anything left for tomorrow. Good day

***ASHLYN***

AN IDEAL PRACTICE !

From 21^st July to 24^th July was an innovative occurrence for me. I took part in a survey

which was held in Hithadhoo. Wow that was amazing. Well things went perfectly. I got quite enough number of new friends.

Finally sitting at home for few weeks after the end of school I went out and faced such a colossal crowd. I met lot of fresh faces, new personalities, and got likelihood to cram and attend to cases where there is bunch of peril, twinge and loads of extra stance.

Doesn’t that astonish???

***ASHLYN***

BLUES

I have never seen you. I never knew you. But when you came to my life it seemed like I got everything.
I myself never thought I would be attracted to you like that. The days you were with me were the most beautiful days of my life. From you I learnt what the true life is. I thank you for the kindness and care you gave me for the past 1 year.
No one ever thought I would fall in love or be attracted to someone whom I donno.I have just came across once in life time. But it happened. All my friends and people around me thought I would be with a guy who would be prominent among to the little group of us. But the true me was not that. Outside is a harsh, offensive conceited and stylish person. They believe that what I ever mattered is style. No one ever tried to find who I am. So no one realize the soft heart behind the callous face.
I put great effort to prove myself. I struggled day and night. Everyday brought me a new line of attack. A throbbing end. Even from the very close acquaintances took me off beam. At last they became a menace for me. Most of the time close comrade becomes your support but for me it was conflicting. That threat which lit that instant changed my entire life. It took away my cheerful life, my smile everything. Slowly I became to live alone in a corner. I stopped murmuring. I always stay still. Whenever I see those bullying faces they compose me more and more scared. Finally I lost true me.
Before I never get anger for anything, but later on anger is always on my nose tip. At that jiffy I never grasp what I say. But later when my wits calm down I realize my gaffe and I regret for that. There is no one to share things. I couldn’t trust even one friend. I kept all pain to myself dying hundred times a day. Today I want to go back to where I truly belong. But it’s already too late. I have no way to go back. If I want that to happen I would need someone’s help but no one understand me as to whom I am.

***ASHLYN***

IT'S MY B'DAY

Happy birthday to me......... Well it’s my birthday, but am not happy as much as I should be. I got lot of present, even a big party is going to be thrown...But some important things had slipped away from my hands which doesn't let the light penetrate through the dark clouds. Something which mean more than anything in this world for me. In addition to that I’ve grown one year old too. Poor me!!! Doesn't matter. Some good things too happened. From today onwards I will get all the legal rights. I can take my license; I can go for a job. No one would say I am under aged :D and many more
***ASHLYN***

RAIN

A hot, sunny country, with months and months of dry weather and the first rain is a big event .Everybody has something to say about it

For me nothing is more comforting than waking up from my comfy warm bed to the sound of rain outside. And the scent of that first rain, wow!! So nice, The streets I am sure needed a good wash. It certainly wasn’t the same as the rare raindrops in the Desert that send kids outside dancing and cause flash floods during their five minute downpour. But it’s so nice to have rain instead of sticky humidity.

People here get all edgy when they feel the drops. It could be just a few drops, but people will start running as if it is a torrentious downpour. Traffic comes to a standstill. Drivers get nervous when drops knock their windowshields. Roads get slick from the accumulation of greases and oils amalgamating with the rains, so drivers drive much slower, even if it is a light rain that poses no danger.

Today people are looking out the window watching the rain, talking about the rain, blogging about the rain. But they are missing something. The beautiful sensation of it.

***ASHLYN***

BIOGRAPHY

Name:Ashlyn
Gender: Female
Nationality:Maldivian
Date of Birth:18 July 1990
Hobby:Surfing Internet, Daydreaming :P


I think thats more than enough for the day cya

Enjoy the day!!

***ASHLYN***